Hello, hello! I just created a cool Tableau story with sheets and dashboards, processing the data which was left out from the previous vizes. I added it to the Protector Project menu as well. Is it good enough, what you think? Take a look and judge it yourself! 🙂
It’s been my plan long ago to publish this essay which analyses the relationships and important characters in the Protector trilogy. I created a google site for it with two pages: Essay and Characters one by one, and I added multiple slides and some pics too.
My expectations? Oh. I had many: to identify the places, to see Nic and us there, to ask instructions. I know very well that places are changing as time goes by, new houses get erected, old ones get demolished or reconstructed. I was prepared not to find anything that’s familiar. I was wrong.
My strongest first dejá-vu feeling came when I faced this monumental building. Its name is Justiz Palast and it functions as a courthouse I believe. I certainly visited it in the old times, and not just once… My second powerful dejá-vu happened when we drove along the wide and long-long Leopoldstrasse. We hit the traffic jam, because it was 5 pm, but the street looked very familiar. The whole time I had the impression that I am not at a foreign place. It was curious, and also a happy sensation on a way.
We were able to find up our old home, the old house. The street was oddly familiar, even with some of the modern details here and there. The fence and the walls looked fairly renovated, and probably the people who dwell there take care of the inside of it as well. We found that at the back side the balcony still exists, just like the little veranda part at the bottom is still there. Although the house was painted probably numerous times, and the sitebuilding is made bigger, it still has the original characteristics.
On the collage:
- up left: the house from the front (the garden and the trees disappeared, but a few houses away we saw similar tall pines like the ones we had)
- bottom left: back of the house
- middle: this is the place where Nic waited to see us the last time we met, almost facing the house
- top right: the neighbouring street, we used to meet here with Nic while I was pregnant
- bottom right: a forest like area near the house, today there is a sport complex behind it (for football trainings and other)
I show the most important places on a map:
Here are pictures from the inner city. I have been walking at these places countless times in the past, alone, with others or with Nicholaus.
On the collage:
- top left: Hofgarten
- bottom left: Frauenkirche church with the famous two towers – from Nic’s flat they were visible
- bottom central: Hofgarten walkway
- top right: Augustine Brau Restaurant
- bottom right: Englischer Garten
My father’s city home (and office in one) was near the Königsplatz-Justizpalast area in an older, neoclassicist building which stands a huge chance of having been destroyed during the world war or later. Where my mother lived, I don’t know – my guess is she lived southern from the city in our family curia. At least the landscape around Rosenheim looked very familiar.
I was aware almost continuously to my upper-self connection to the other souls’ who shared my life experience there in the old times. The bond exists, unchanged, wherever they go, whatever they do… I believe, there is a constant contact between souls. Even between souls living in the same area, and even though they aren’t related or may be nursing dislike towards the other.
Thanks God, I am surrounded by kind, supportive people, who DID understand the importance of this trip. My mom, who was my daughter and my dad who was my first son. So it wasn’t only my journey, it was OURS. I was like a representative. As all who had been involved in my life back then, certainly some of them (and in the deepest inner all of them) might be aware that something amazing was going on right then – while I was there, recalling our common stories.
There was something strange about Nic before and during this journey. I caught him trying to communicate a few days before, and in meditation I saw him crying (well, we have the means to communicate through our old selves, but I don’t want to go into this now). He expressed his wish to come with me, and I agreed. Every evening when we were back in the hotel I lit a candle and meditated (anyway, I do it every day). The communication between his old self and my old self remained almost unbroken while we were in the city, and I perceived a particularly powerful presence when walking in the Hofgarten. It felt like holding hands… Certainly that happened many times in the past there. All in all the journey helped both of us, so I feel. When Satuday morning I sat on the railjet to travel to Austria I saw him in front of my inner eye, and Nic was smiling. This is just great! 🙂
Was I able to see past events? Did I find some revelations? Or synchronicity? Yes I was able to. It was quite curious to witness how issues of the past and issues of the presence meet. It was like time travel. Honesty, I see some videos on the net, saying people are coming to us from the future. If I should comment it, I’d wrote: BS. For time travel you don’t need kitschy equipment. Any real yogi would tell you that.
How to go on?
I gratefully thank the opportunity of traveling to my once-home. I am grateful it could touch my heart, I know this is a privilege. I will continue following my heart. That’s all. I will continue healing and helping others to heal. Now on a higher level… This IS positive ending. I successfully created a better memory-ending: now I have better last memories of that city. And looking at the places I can confirm one thing: for the long run only love remains. Everything else goes by…
It’s been my dream years and years ago, to visit some of the places where I was living in the past. Often, I mean almost every week I travel home by train. At the train station I keep seeing the railjet that goes to Wien, to Salzburg and München. It arrives and leaves the platform 15 only minutes before my train. As it stops, I keep glancing at it, the boards and the digital notice on the electric doors which displays: München Hbf. In a past life, between 1893-1937 I was living there almost for a whole lifetime. I always wondered, what would it be like to hop on that railjet and take off.
Would I feel happy about getting there? Again? In a new body – under a new name? Would I find the streets familiar? What would it be like treading the same streets with my ‘new’ feet? Would I be able to find my old home? And, how would I feel about it, if I did? May the old houses still stand or have they been perished in the war? Or maybe the areas were rebuilt differently? Is it possible that somebody from my family still lives around there? So many questions…
Normally I have no time for random travelling, nor enough spared money. But, since a few months I have a new job with a tiny bit bigger salary. In January I thought I deserve a travel for fun and this year I WILL go to Munich to check the place.
I would be the happiest to go there with Nicholaus, perhaps. Walking around the places we’ve once visited while we were so deep in love would be wonderful. But, despite of how I hoped he’s still asleep, far from true wakening. Sad sigh comes here… Anyway, I won’t throw away the idea because of him, I thought.
I offered it to my mom that she could come with me – she was my daughter there. She was interested – or maybe just polite – at the beginning. Later she started backing, saying she doesn’t like traveling. True, she’s not a tourist person, she prefers to stay home in peace. That’s more relaxing for her than visiting a bunch of foreign places. Well, I can perfectly understand her point.
Then I offered the chance to my dad. He was my first son in that incarnation and we did not have a cloudless relationship – also not even in our present life. He said yes, and I can say he’s quite excited about the journey. I told him, I know I wasn’t a good mother for him, so let me make it up a bit, and we can make this trip together. He agreed. Then this was settled.
The plans are quite complete, hotels booked, tickets bought, shoes at the ready. Our past home is located with a fairly good accuracy. I am thrilled and also a bit scared to see it again – to be there again. I also want to take a walk at a few places where I was promenading a lot with Nicholaus and my sons: the Hofgarten, the Englischer Garten, and the city centre, near the Justizpalast – my dad had his house around that area. Maybe we can check one of the cemeteries too. Pity I can’t remember our family name, not yet.
I’ll take candles for meditation and maybe I’ll leave a few flowers or candles at our ex-home. I’ll see…
November 16, 2017
Interview with Annamaria Marta Furedi, Author of “Protector: Recovering Memories.”
Reading and Writing Addiction was able to catch up with Annamaria Marta Furedi, Author of “Protector: Recovering Memories.” We are excited to share this insightful interview today with our readers.
When did you first discover that you enjoy writing and wanted to become a published author?
Very early, as a child.
What is your favourite and the most challenging aspect of writing?
Generally I write, when I feel I have something to share, something I don’t want to keep inside. It’s a very challenging, but absolutely rewarding activity.
Tell us about your latest release. How did you come up with the title of your book.
Protector: Recovering Memories refers to the main essence of knowing so many past incarnations. Together they make an incredible great context and each lifetime gets its own special meaning and significance within the big picture. And I think this knowledge should be shared with the widest audience. The discoveries are not only my own, it’s not my privilege to own them. So I feel.
What do you hope readers are able to get from reading your story?
I use my past incarnation episodes as a sort of ‘case study’, to look at what reincarnation is, and how it works. We all have our own karmic issues and even if they are rather unique there are several common traits. The laws of the universe are the same for all of us. And I believe that we can learn a lot from each-other.
Who are some of your favourite authors?
I read a wide range of books, I don’t have favourite authors.
Do you have any advice for writers looking to get published?
Be patient, work diligently and never give up on your dream.
The book contains the description of two past incarnations, Almost and Lisabeta. I’d like to bring up the Lisabeta episode, it is one of the past lives you could recollect. As to your husband H, are you sorry about the way you behaved?
Yes. I felt ashamed, I think that comes out from between the lines. I am sorry about it. Our marriage was a very unfortunate one. The disaster was predictable at its very start. Simply, we weren’t a match.
About Nicholaus, who was your childhood friend and later your lover and partner, what you feel about him now?
I still feel a lot of love about him. I don’t think this will ever change. There is an interesting thing about him. His nation choice – he was my father at Wingless Angels, and he very disliked Germans. Then, some centuries later he was born to a militarist German family… The turns of life… The turns of karma… By my observation this kind of thing happens quite often.
It’s very touching to see that loved ones meet again and again, and they may feel the same, no matter how much time went by.
Absolutely. Time is not so important from the soul’s perspective.
Could you achieve some improvement? By meditation or other way?
Very good question. Yes, I did! I managed to turn the memories connected to him positive in the latest months. To achieve this I had to travel to Germany – and there I’ve heard something that helped me to heal it. It was a talk from a man named Gunagriha. He is a disciple of Sri Chimnoy who was a famous guru. So, he said that instead of mourning what was ruined and what went dead, we shall be happy that we were given time to be together, happy that we got moments to share. This caught me. I instantly knew: this will be it, this is the word I was looking for so long. Suddenly as I thought at Nic I was able to feel differently, I saw this relationship in a whole new light. I am able to feel thankful for the days when we could be together, when we could give and accept love to and from the other – no matter how the relationship ended. This is just wonderful! Since this Eureka moment I feel much better.
How his memory influences your private life?
It’s not easy to live with it. Anytime I had a relationship, or a possibility of it, I always felt that this is just not it… But I learned to shift it aside.
You keep making comparisons?
Sometimes, yes. I do my best to ignore this feeling, because I don’t want to be the victim of our common past. And as long as he can’t remember anything, I can’t do much. It takes two to solve this.
What would you say if you met him?
Hello, long time no see… Well, I don’t know. It depends how we meet again. It would depend on how much he knows. Also it would depend on the place, on the day, on the weather, on the actual magnetic field of the Earth, pff, and dozens of other things. I can’t tell, really. Hopefully it’d go well.
What happened before this Lisabeta episode?
I had a short life in England, in the nineteenth century. I lived in a rather miserable environment and I died after I gave birth to a girl. I was no more than 18-19.
Where in England? In London?
I don’t know, it was a big city. Maybe Birmingham or London, I can’t tell.
You know, this symbol looks close to Radiohead’s sign. At least this was my first impression! I really like them. It looks very like it. Weren’t you inspired by that?
No. Actually I’ve sent them some poems many years before, including this sign. It was back in the middle of the nineties, around 1997. They were drawn on small postcards, I decorated them with this sign.
Wow, they might have used it, then! What did you think when you saw theirs? You certainly noticed the resemblance!
Of course. From my part, it’s fine if they used it, and it’s fine if they didn’t. It’s okay. I use this ancient sign as a signature long ago because it sums up my goal of writing, presenting anything. In case they had been inspired by it, that’s great.We are in this world to inspire each-other.
Would you tell me more about the Byzantine prince? In the book you did not go into detail, you only mentioned him on the margin.
Exactly. I don’t think it is wise to go into details just now, and it may not be too important. Before presenting it I want to see how people receive posthumous memoirs in general. Also, it might not even be safe to publish it. I’ll see. Firstly I’d like to sell the movie script, more like.
Any other thing you’d like to mention?
Yes. We plan to bring together a Meetup event in December. It will take place in London, and hopefully in Brighton. For more info, come to the Meetup Event and also visit www.greenismycolour.com or Twitter.
Interview at All that Buzz site:
An Interview With Annamaria Marta Furedi, Author Of Protector: Recovering Memories
– Basically, who is your protagonist?
– You had male and female lives?
Yes, mostly male lives. I have female incarnations since about the fifteenth century. Before that I had male lives for thousands of years.
– You say you’ve collected more than seventy incarnation episodes. Are there more? Unwritten ones?
Absolutely. Many, I guess.
– Could you tell me how these memories emerged?
The first two incarnation stories had been revealed during the hypnosis seating. Then the story of the prince followed them a year or two later. But, these memories had been present all my life, only I didn’t know they belong to past incarnations! I mean, I wrote a lot of poems and looking at them afterwards I can pick parts that relate to certain past experiences. This might be the case with several writers, singers, movie makers, too. Old motifs keep surfacing, knowing or not.
– Tell me more about the Protector trilogy.
It is the collection of the past incarnations that I collected after a particularly upsetting regressive hypnosis session. They are my posthumous memoirs if you like. (smile) I sorted them into three volumes. The first covers the oldest incarnations, the second is one episode with plenty of details. The third contains the incarnations that followed the second volume’s episode up to my actual life.
– What is it like to live together with so many memories?
Strange. Honestly, part of me is grateful, or at least I learned to feel grateful. (laugh) Really, sometimes it is challenging. It happens that I miss the people and the places I knew… Losing the loved ones, I mean the knowledge you have lost them comes with the feeling of mourning, inevitably. Fortunately I have enough to-dos and I don’t have much time to dwell on such things. And I know we are tied anyway.
– Are you doing past life reading?
Sometimes, for friends or relations, yes. But only when I’m asked.
– How these memories influence your days?
Um, normally I don’t mind them as I have to focus on my daily work. But, they are always present in the back of my mind. It’s like having tons of plus life experience. Often they give me inspiration, or motivation.
– You have a kind of project connected to the book, right?
Yes. I am learning data science and I just had the idea that it would be great to visualize the connections I discovered. The project is about to summarize and analyze the stories of the trilogy, like a sort of case study. Fortunately, I have a few helpers and we apply data visualization technologies and interactive charts to display the results. A map and a graph is already available on my site, but there are many more on the way.
– We read that you have left your body during that liver transplantation operation. Would you tell us a few words about it? What your near death experience was like?
Yes, I had an out-of-body experience, you know, the classical NDE. I saw myself from above and later I saw the building and the nearby streets. It was deep night, and with the lights on the sight was quite beautiful. I don’t remember meeting God or any angels but I remember that all-pervading happiness and lightness. I never felt anything like it before.
– What are your goals now?
To sell the movie script and become a millionaire…. No, really, I’d like to work for the animals or for the people who need my help. Also, I’d like to progress with learning more about statistics and meditation, I’d like to go and visit my friends in Japan, and mostly, to repay my parents’ debt, and to build a shelter for unwanted turtles. I have a lot of plans, you see? There is a lot left to do. Living idly is not for me, I like to feel being useful, you know.
In-depth interview about reincarnation at Across the Realms Physics:
All with the careful proofreading I just noticed a few misspelled words, and inaccurate expressions. Here is the improved version of the interview:
I’d like to ask, how do you see the past life regressive hypnosis and reading methods, which is so popular lately?
As to regressive hypnosis there are a couple of pros and cons. With all my experience, my personal opinion is that past life memories should come up naturally as part of the spiritual development. Of course, there are methods to ‘excavate’ them, but they barely do good. Some guru said that while you are walking the road towards God, towards enlightenment, you’ll see trees along the road. These trees bring various fruits. You can sit down and enjoy them, or you can leave them untouched and move on, it’s up to you. The ability to remember the so-called past life memories is one of the fruits. When you have reached a certain high level of consciousness, they return to you automatically. And for that time you will be armed with the necessary knowledge and experience to use them, to understand them and to value their impact. If you have these memories earlier than you are mature, they can cause trouble and confusion. It’s like on your first day in kindergarten you would claim your PhD. You may even get it, but you won’t have the knowledge and the skills to handle it, let alone understand it. On the other hand, bringing back some of the past life stuff may quicken your spiritual development. This depends on your attitude. You can throw them away and live like you did before. Or, suddenly you may want to grow up to them, to be able to cope with them. They can be a motivation for development, and then it’s great. It’s also good if you can find a clever therapist who helps you to heal a certain trauma with positive affirmations. Any educated and successful one is in material life, spiritually, 99% of the people are like babies and newbies. This is why normally I try to dissuade them from trying to tackle past lives. They’re just not ready. Of course, nobody likes to hear this… In this modern world we want to get everything right now. But the soul is not to be commanded like that, it won’t obey. It needs the time and diligence, it needs regular and humble practice of being loving and kind. It needs the effort to go towards perfection, to let the godly qualities we all have inside shine through. And then, one day, your memories will come back to you naturally.
Is it hard tuning on the events of a certain incarnation?
No, normally not, it depends. It’s mostly about placing my focus there, into a certain moment. Some of the memories can be evoked easily while others are harder to access. Difficulties appear when the ‘searched’ event or moment is emotionally problematic and activate a painful sentiment from that time interval, like shame, anger, helplessness, intense anxiety. And the time factor, the memory’s distance in time is also important. Far things tend to trigger lower emotional reactions, they are shadier, and one can view them more neutrally. This is my general observation, but there are always issues that vary.
Could you show me an example?
Sure. It happened that one of a fairly distant memory caused me hardships when I tried to reveal it. It was actually a memory of being in a prison, waiting to be executed. I couldn’t recall what exactly happened, how I died, though I tried real hard to find it out. Then, during a meditation the solution came to me. When I sat down to meditate next I asked the assistance of the one who murdered me there to show me his memories on the event. I got his permission, and I could see the whole thing through his eyes, perceiving his emotions – it was sweeping anger. I instantly understood why I couldn’t recall it myself: I was barely conscious of what was happening, and it was too gruesome to explain or to remember.
Wow, amazing. Do you feel responsibility in general for your past actions?
Yes. Especially about lives when I was a leader. Leaders and particularly rulers are always accountable for the well-being of their people, in every sense. This is a law. Every teardrop that falls because of your deeds or failures becomes your karmic debt, it returns to you inevitably. And as a leader all your actions are magnified and viewed more critically than that of the average people. One can create very heavy karma while being in a leadership position.
Can you forget? Can you forgive?
I do my best to forgive, but one has to forgive again and again as time goes by. As to forgetting, I don’t wish to forget anything. Re-evaluation of memories is the key to feel better, and not the complete denial of the past. At least, this is how I see it.
What is your relationship like with those you managed to identify?
In general, very close, and loving. I know of a few persons who were my enemies or in a way harmed me, but most of them live far from me. Plus, many of those you harmed or killed can come to be your partners in following incarnations, a wife or a husband, a parent or something else. From my part, I wish a happy life for all of them. You know, we are part of each other, we are part of those who were in contact with us in the past, and there is no use cherishing bad feelings.
What is the absolute consequence? Is there any?
There are a number of consequences that the stories taught me. The major one is that we are immortal beings. The second is that I have to live more consciously, our hours in our bodies are counted. And it does matter how we spend them. Be an honest and caring person, that’s the best. And do your best to correct your mistakes anytime you hurt somebody, willingly or unwillingly. Be more aware of what karma you are actually collecting: positive or negative. This is vital.
Can one take down karma this way, by revealing the past incarnations?
No, but it gives a great boost to improve your karmic situation by elevating consciousness. Ideally, it can lead one to re-evaluate life as it is, so that later he or she can make better choices.
Did these memories change your life?
Absolutely. Knowing that life doesn’t really end when you finish a lifetime will change the very way you look at the world.
Did you become more aware, more compassionate?
No, I think I was compassionate before as well, even without this. But it helped me to value the possibility of life. And realizing that one is a soul is always a game-changer.
What gives you strength in the normal days?
That I know I have a goal, something to live for. As long as I feel this way I will be okay.
Why did you feel you have to share your experiences?
We all have our own karmic issues, and even if they are rather unique there are several common traits. I believe that we can learn a lot from each other. I, for example, read or listen to other people’s stories with great interest. This book is my ‘case study,’ at least I treat the episodes so. They are a huge amount of data and I am working hard so that others may benefit from it too. That’s why I am a member of some healing communities.
This book “GoodReads as one of the best books on Past Life Regression is my case study’, at least I treat the episodes so.” and listed on
Where do you feel your real home is? The place you belong? A particular land?
Oh, I can’t properly tell you. Mainly at the place where my loved ones are living. Most people would answer the same, I guess. I don’t feel that there is a single and easily definable spot on this Earth where I belong. I remember many of my past homes though, and in a way, I feel tied to them, even today.
Did you ever visit them?
No, not yet. Nobody’s missing me in those places, and they have certainly changed a lot. It would be sad to see this, the shadows of old days, happy or unhappy. It would be really upsetting, I guess. It’s hard to realize that something that was so solid and obvious disappears fully. This is incomprehensible, this is transience. You know, the illusory nature of the mortal world.
As to your ex-families, partners and children, do you miss them? Obviously you do.
What would be the best conclusion to share?
In Asia, there is a story tied to Quan Yin, who is known there as the Goddess of Mercy. In the times when a part of China was plundered by its enemies, there lived a man named Chen who deeply honoured Quan Yin, he always had candles and scents at the altar in his home. One day, in his dream, the goddess appeared and warned him: one of the rebels will come to you and will try to kill you. Chen woke up with a start and prayed all night to the goddess. Next night, he dreamt with the goddess again, who told him: “In a previous life, you have killed this rebel, this is why he, unknowingly, wants to kill you now, to even your common karma. Despite of this, I will do everything to help you. The man is called Wang Zhan, from the He Nan province, he has been an orphan since he was a small child and he lives in great poverty, this is why he joined the rebels. Tomorrow he will come here and you shall prepare a magnificent dinner. Think, friendliness changes even the most vicious enemies.” Then the goddess’ shape disappeared. Next day, Chen sent his family to a safer place and stayed home alone to prepare the great dinner. Very soon he caught shouts and cries from outside and a rebel stepped in his house. Chen asked him: “You are Wang Zhan from He Nan province, you’ve been an orphan since you were a small child? I was already waiting for you to have a dinner together.” Wang nodded, and though he was utterly surprised he accepted the invitation. During the dinner, Chen explained his dreams with Quan Yin, and all that the goddess told him. After the dinner Chen stood up and knelt in front of Wang Zhan, and said: “I owe you with a life because in a past life I killed you. Please, kill me now so that I can repay my debt.” But Wang told him to stand up, and added: “My parents died when I was a small child. I joined the rebels in my despair. You are the first person who turns toward me with kindness. I am tired of killing people and plundering. Why would I kill you? See, now you are my friend.” Wang was deeply touched, he said: “I have some money, I would give it to you, you could open a shop from it.” Wang accepted the help gratefully and the two men became good friends for a lifetime. I think this is a great story. You see, the consequence is that we always have the power to switch things to the better, no matter what karma we own. We always have the chance, all we have to do is use it. Reincarnation is hope.
We were shooting a video today! 🙂
Video by Arlo. Thanks a lot!!! 🙂