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Tied to you, unreachable
this is how I feel
you became blind again
you are deaf again
your eyes and ears are useless
they only take in the daily buzz
at the spot of topmost snobbery
you’re holding your head high
there are days when you think
you are above the rest
how far you are
how close you could be
how great we should be
why is it so hard to alert you
why am I compelled to try
over and over again
why do I have to know
why can’t you know it too??!
In-depth interview about reincarnation at Across the Realms Physics:
All with the careful proofreading I just noticed a few misspelled words, and inaccurate expressions. Here is the improved version of the interview:
I’d like to ask, how do you see the past life regressive hypnosis and reading methods, which is so popular lately?
As to regressive hypnosis there are a couple of pros and cons. With all my experience, my personal opinion is that past life memories should come up naturally as part of the spiritual development. Of course, there are methods to ‘excavate’ them, but they barely do good. Some guru said that while you are walking the road towards God, towards enlightenment, you’ll see trees along the road. These trees bring various fruits. You can sit down and enjoy them, or you can leave them untouched and move on, it’s up to you. The ability to remember the so-called past life memories is one of the fruits. When you have reached a certain high level of consciousness, they return to you automatically. And for that time you will be armed with the necessary knowledge and experience to use them, to understand them and to value their impact. If you have these memories earlier than you are mature, they can cause trouble and confusion. It’s like on your first day in kindergarten you would claim your PhD. You may even get it, but you won’t have the knowledge and the skills to handle it, let alone understand it. On the other hand, bringing back some of the past life stuff may quicken your spiritual development. This depends on your attitude. You can throw them away and live like you did before. Or, suddenly you may want to grow up to them, to be able to cope with them. They can be a motivation for development, and then it’s great. It’s also good if you can find a clever therapist who helps you to heal a certain trauma with positive affirmations. Any educated and successful one is in material life, spiritually, 99% of the people are like babies and newbies. This is why normally I try to dissuade them from trying to tackle past lives. They’re just not ready. Of course, nobody likes to hear this… In this modern world we want to get everything right now. But the soul is not to be commanded like that, it won’t obey. It needs the time and diligence, it needs regular and humble practice of being loving and kind. It needs the effort to go towards perfection, to let the godly qualities we all have inside shine through. And then, one day, your memories will come back to you naturally.
Is it hard tuning on the events of a certain incarnation?
No, normally not, it depends. It’s mostly about placing my focus there, into a certain moment. Some of the memories can be evoked easily while others are harder to access. Difficulties appear when the ‘searched’ event or moment is emotionally problematic and activate a painful sentiment from that time interval, like shame, anger, helplessness, intense anxiety. And the time factor, the memory’s distance in time is also important. Far things tend to trigger lower emotional reactions, they are shadier, and one can view them more neutrally. This is my general observation, but there are always issues that vary.
Could you show me an example?
Sure. It happened that one of a fairly distant memory caused me hardships when I tried to reveal it. It was actually a memory of being in a prison, waiting to be executed. I couldn’t recall what exactly happened, how I died, though I tried real hard to find it out. Then, during a meditation the solution came to me. When I sat down to meditate next I asked the assistance of the one who murdered me there to show me his memories on the event. I got his permission, and I could see the whole thing through his eyes, perceiving his emotions – it was sweeping anger. I instantly understood why I couldn’t recall it myself: I was barely conscious of what was happening, and it was too gruesome to explain or to remember.
Wow, amazing. Do you feel responsibility in general for your past actions?
Yes. Especially about lives when I was a leader. Leaders and particularly rulers are always accountable for the well-being of their people, in every sense. This is a law. Every teardrop that falls because of your deeds or failures becomes your karmic debt, it returns to you inevitably. And as a leader all your actions are magnified and viewed more critically than that of the average people. One can create very heavy karma while being in a leadership position.
Can you forget? Can you forgive?
I do my best to forgive, but one has to forgive again and again as time goes by. As to forgetting, I don’t wish to forget anything. Re-evaluation of memories is the key to feel better, and not the complete denial of the past. At least, this is how I see it.
What is your relationship like with those you managed to identify?
In general, very close, and loving. I know of a few persons who were my enemies or in a way harmed me, but most of them live far from me. Plus, many of those you harmed or killed can come to be your partners in following incarnations, a wife or a husband, a parent or something else. From my part, I wish a happy life for all of them. You know, we are part of each other, we are part of those who were in contact with us in the past, and there is no use cherishing bad feelings.
What is the absolute consequence? Is there any?
There are a number of consequences that the stories taught me. The major one is that we are immortal beings. The second is that I have to live more consciously, our hours in our bodies are counted. And it does matter how we spend them. Be an honest and caring person, that’s the best. And do your best to correct your mistakes anytime you hurt somebody, willingly or unwillingly. Be more aware of what karma you are actually collecting: positive or negative. This is vital.
Can one take down karma this way, by revealing the past incarnations?
No, but it gives a great boost to improve your karmic situation by elevating consciousness. Ideally, it can lead one to re-evaluate life as it is, so that later he or she can make better choices.
Did these memories change your life?
Absolutely. Knowing that life doesn’t really end when you finish a lifetime will change the very way you look at the world.
Did you become more aware, more compassionate?
No, I think I was compassionate before as well, even without this. But it helped me to value the possibility of life. And realizing that one is a soul is always a game-changer.
What gives you strength in the normal days?
That I know I have a goal, something to live for. As long as I feel this way I will be okay.
Why did you feel you have to share your experiences?
We all have our own karmic issues, and even if they are rather unique there are several common traits. I believe that we can learn a lot from each other. I, for example, read or listen to other people’s stories with great interest. This book is my ‘case study,’ at least I treat the episodes so. They are a huge amount of data and I am working hard so that others may benefit from it too. That’s why I am a member of some healing communities.
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Where do you feel your real home is? The place you belong? A particular land?
Oh, I can’t properly tell you. Mainly at the place where my loved ones are living. Most people would answer the same, I guess. I don’t feel that there is a single and easily definable spot on this Earth where I belong. I remember many of my past homes though, and in a way, I feel tied to them, even today.
Did you ever visit them?
No, not yet. Nobody’s missing me in those places, and they have certainly changed a lot. It would be sad to see this, the shadows of old days, happy or unhappy. It would be really upsetting, I guess. It’s hard to realize that something that was so solid and obvious disappears fully. This is incomprehensible, this is transience. You know, the illusory nature of the mortal world.
As to your ex-families, partners and children, do you miss them? Obviously you do.
What would be the best conclusion to share?
In Asia, there is a story tied to Quan Yin, who is known there as the Goddess of Mercy. In the times when a part of China was plundered by its enemies, there lived a man named Chen who deeply honoured Quan Yin, he always had candles and scents at the altar in his home. One day, in his dream, the goddess appeared and warned him: one of the rebels will come to you and will try to kill you. Chen woke up with a start and prayed all night to the goddess. Next night, he dreamt with the goddess again, who told him: “In a previous life, you have killed this rebel, this is why he, unknowingly, wants to kill you now, to even your common karma. Despite of this, I will do everything to help you. The man is called Wang Zhan, from the He Nan province, he has been an orphan since he was a small child and he lives in great poverty, this is why he joined the rebels. Tomorrow he will come here and you shall prepare a magnificent dinner. Think, friendliness changes even the most vicious enemies.” Then the goddess’ shape disappeared. Next day, Chen sent his family to a safer place and stayed home alone to prepare the great dinner. Very soon he caught shouts and cries from outside and a rebel stepped in his house. Chen asked him: “You are Wang Zhan from He Nan province, you’ve been an orphan since you were a small child? I was already waiting for you to have a dinner together.” Wang nodded, and though he was utterly surprised he accepted the invitation. During the dinner, Chen explained his dreams with Quan Yin, and all that the goddess told him. After the dinner Chen stood up and knelt in front of Wang Zhan, and said: “I owe you with a life because in a past life I killed you. Please, kill me now so that I can repay my debt.” But Wang told him to stand up, and added: “My parents died when I was a small child. I joined the rebels in my despair. You are the first person who turns toward me with kindness. I am tired of killing people and plundering. Why would I kill you? See, now you are my friend.” Wang was deeply touched, he said: “I have some money, I would give it to you, you could open a shop from it.” Wang accepted the help gratefully and the two men became good friends for a lifetime. I think this is a great story. You see, the consequence is that we always have the power to switch things to the better, no matter what karma we own. We always have the chance, all we have to do is use it. Reincarnation is hope.